The thing was I did not feel odd / embarresed / akward at all. Before I went I had accepted I would be standing there in underwear / dress with the assistant helping me but was not actually comfortable with it but over the last couple of months I have been chatting to someone and I have come to realise that my crossdressing is part of me. Its not something I role-play at, I dont get into "Suzy" mode to dress up, it is there all the time, it is my real life and it is nothing to be ashamed off.
When I was in the underwear shop first I had
on this with the assistant helping me with the bra and I felt totally comfortable, and that was the first time I had ever done anything like that. Also the assistant had a sexy french accent - maybe that helped a bit
Then in the dress shop I did start with just poking my head out of the changing room when I wanted help, then opening the curtain more and when I did come out of the changing room when the assistant offered, I just did it, it felt so right. The thing is doing something like that is really not me I am quite a shy and self concious person but now with the way I feel I can do anything.
I had emailed the shops before asking if they catered with TVs and the underwear shop suggesting coming first thing in the morning midweek so it was quiet and they could give me there full attention but the dress shop did not really give a preference.
I even have the picture above on my phone. I need to get some shoes to go with the dress (thinking of red strappy sandels) and if I am in the shop looking and an assistant asks then I will say they are for me and show the picture of the outfit to indicate what it has to go with. I wont deliberately ask the assisant but if I am asked then I am fine with that.
I really feel so liberated now, and everytime I think about it or write about it I feel so good inside.
And yes I did have stockings on in the above picture but I need to get shorter ones, the suspender clips on the girdle are lower than a normal suspender belt so need shorter stocking so the stay up '"tight" and don't wrinkle.